this is probably something ALOT of u people out there have not had the experience. sebabnya:
- rukun tetangga in semenanjung m'sia isnt as strong as it is here
- so, it doesnt happen kat sana lah! doiii.
- i have no more reasons to type here.
wuhooooooo! SPM dah habis.
♬freedoooommm, freedooomm♪ ♫
so, yayy. on 20 Dec 2010, tepattepat pukul 10.30am, saya FREE, FREE and FREEEE!semua orang in the Dewan Besar SEMESTA ta saba saba na siapkan kertas LK :) ehem, bukan ta suka yeah? kitorg tggu 14 frickin days tau na jawab paper tu? gila apa tunggu lama" lepas budak bio dah bebas dpd cengkaman 'exam-oriented high school student'. tgk dorg melompat" rse na sekeh je. cehhh, sorry ye kawan if awk bace ni. itu dulu. now, sy pun dah habis maa *halo atas kepala sy, npk ta?
so, dah habis semua tu bla bla bla. ciou dari sekolah, cuti cuti cuti. then balik laa kuching sini
and then one day.....
En. N*note, bukan nme sebenar lah! [Accept] [Not Now]
he's my neighbour. i accept lah! apa yg na tanda soal lagi? :) then ktorg start tegur menegur.
bla bla bla.
except for the fact that i couldnt understand what he was saying!? let me tell u, sarawakian is not that easy oh! sumpaa, bes bes lah. tp bila dah shortform, AMEK KAU. =) haha.melongo lah kau dpan lappy kau tu. LOL ^^
so we talked and talked. and throughout the whole process, i noticed how sensitive he was. i mean when i'd said "chat later", memanglah not necessarily i will be online in the next half an hour or so! haiyaaaa. then when i pg balit*notice, a touch of sarawakian spelling dkt page dy.
i didnt have access.
hell yeah, he deleted me! i pun jadi pelik lah kenapa macam tu kan.and this is what happened,
i dont think we should be friends anymore. sy na borak td, awk ckap awk pg makan.makan lah sgt.
What?I wasn't lying to u ok.I really was eating and baru skrg na online.I'm sorry if I'm such a bad person to be ur friend.myb I just shouldn't even be here.I don't belong here rite?ayat pancing*
actually,i dont want u to go back to kl.i kinda like u a lot.but i have a prob,its hard for me to trust girl.(then dy story2 lah about his past, made me feel guilty.sorta.)
sy tanak suka mana2 ppuan,...(and more, more of that i couldnt translate of)
for the moment that was it. i ta sempat na balas apa2 pun dy dah send lagi myk2 message.
good morning.im so sorry k.its already 4 a.m but still i cant get some sleep.
mmmmm,i like u so damn much and i wish that u will go somewhere far.mek coba tdo lok k.wish me luck.esk kompom bgn tdo kol 12.
wahhhhh,typo.(i wish that u will never go somewhere far from me.♥
so by the time i woke up and got online, i read all these(there were more kut?) i was like in UTTER SHOCK.believe it or not, mana lah sy tahu he had feelings for me? i hardly talked to him.in person pun!
moving on, i layan jela. tp not the jiwangs part. i tried to be friendly and a reaaallllyy be a friend.seriously, i did. but he liked to bring the topic back to the 'part'. err..+.+
Erm, then don't lah.being just friends is always better.
love come from friendship.plus ur kind,dakne lh mek x ska ngan tak.-_-"
mn mek x ska pange ktk,bok lh mek x ska ngan tak.
mn mek x ska pange ktk,bok lh mek x ska ngan tak.
(mcm mana sy tak bole sukakan awk and something something)
but kta baru je knal? kn?and how do u know I'm kind? tibe2 dpt tau mek mcm singa, lari truss.
yes,tp mek dh prati ktk 2 taun bah time tak dtg umah mek.mek pnh dlk(dulu) add tak lam(dlm) fb,p tak x approve2.ya mek cancel blit.mn tak jdi singa mek jdi singa wak lh.♥pange=perange or perangai.
*err, pandai2 lah korg fahamkan sendri =)
quick teachin' and learnin'!
dakne: mcm mana
;) got it?
now, back to the story.
he wrote lagi,
what if i said i love u?
err.i wont say anything lah. i mean, mek sik bole stop ktk or anything. just, i ask for u to not have high hopes sb mek bukan jnis cmtu. okie? mn klo na kawan no problem :)
sy tak mengarapkan ap2 pun.tq n bye bye black bird.jgn rep msg tk k.tc.goodnight
what? knpe ta bole rep? i dont understand:S
because i dont want u too.understand.just leave me alone.
alright, ok. if u dont want me here, ckp jela. i wont show up in front of u. im sorry i cant be ur friend, bye.*HAHA, corny gila ayat aku. tp betul lah, geram time ni :(
i dont care if ur here.sal tak x gago hal mek.mek x gago hal tak.bye.
and so, i didnt rep his message. i had no idea what i felt. i had no idea WHAT HE WANTED? i just let out evrything regarding this issue to Mr. A. i think he understands me too well :)
i know it was stupid of me to cry over something like this, tapi entah ohh. i dont wanna live here knowing i have someone looking down on me from his frickin window?!
i tatau abt u, but klu i rse creepy gila ada org who watches ur every move*his words were more or less
eeeiii, u ni! lagi cuak lah i. the way u ckp tu made me realise even more at how freaky the situation is :(
laaa, betul la! kan?
that night we talked, talked and talked. at first Mr. A let me banjirkan my bedsheet dulu, hearing me cry.LOL, segan lah pulak bila fikir balik =P
but it was worth it.
p/s. if u are still wondering apa kaitan the rukun tangga-tangga thingy up there. errm, well. i'm sory idk lah mcm mana na explain the relations to this story, LOL ^^