Maybe It's Just Me.

Salam :) 

   So I've been thinking, is it true when they say if you dream about someone in particular, the person actually misses you? #kononfakta And is it believable that love between human beings actually exist? #Ireallydontknow. Well not anymore, that is. Yeah, it's that time of life where I tend to reminisce - a lot - about my life. It's the time where I frequently think about (unnecessary, maybe?) things that secretly, it's tearing me down into pieces. We all go through that, don't we? Or maybe it's just me -_- I don't know. I feel like such a loser for feeling so.

The other day I planned on visiting my best friend who currently is doing her CAT at UITM Shah Alam. Hell yeah, I was excited. But then,

Things never work out these days, do they? 

Or maybe it's just me -_-

   Turned out, her mom came to visit the day I initially thought would be my best. I had to cancel it all. Seeing that she felt guilty, I felt even worse. For making one of the most important person to me feeling bad for herself, especially when you've known each other for more than half a decade. To me, that's an accomplishment :) Don't know about you ladies though, but I think having that one special friend instead of a whole frickin "possie" is a lot more helpful in times of you feeling like crap the whole time.

   Forgetting all the crap I've written in the above, I just got my final results yesterday! 

*note the not-so-happy tone* 

I'm not being ungrateful, because truly that is not the case. I'm just saying that maybe I was either feeling a tad bit overconfident or I simply thought that I should've gotten better outcome. I don't know. I was a bit too upset seeing those around me scoring four-point-oh's and me, well. I didn't. At first, they were understanding about it and tried not to rub it in other's faces, but just moments after that I felt like I was just as secluded. Again, it might've just been me -_-

But that's okay :) 

I'm trying to be happy with myself, and alhamdulillah someone really did help me overcome the sh*tty feeling. Thanks Kak Yana(again, lol), because you've opened my eyes and heart again to a world I sometimes feel like I don't really belong to; and of course to others who tried, lol. and Dad who always made me feel better after a phone call. For now, I'm wondering about this other person who so far, I've dedicated a lot of my time and feelings for and well, the message is:

Where are you?

And why do I feel like you're not really there ?

Or maybe it's just me -_-

December.

Salam :) 

I now realize that my previous posts were highly loaded with amateur contents and for that, I am ashamed of myself. Thus, this triggers me to be the mature person I really am. er, *heh heh heh?
-_- Have fun blogwalking! :)

xoxo, 

The Writer herself.

Pashmina's&Pins: Casual for Class

Salam:)

Well hello girlies,

I've been meaning to do this for quite some time now, and I've finally made my videoo! Yipee! 

At first I was scared to really make one considering the many vloggers out there who you are more recognized to and they themselves now are 'public figures', sorta. So anyways, I've made this one for those who've asked me or came up to me in my room or wherever(alot at college la).

This look is inspired by,..well, I don't really know. haha! A bit of this and that there, and voalah! I made it my own, I guess. However, there are some steps of this style that you may find other vloggers "doing" too. But that's just it you know. The world is pretty small.

So, you can pretty much catch me wearing this style back at UM or PASUM or just the RC areas and so on so forth. It's the easiest look! 

Plus, it's not too messy like some you've witnessed others kan? #perasanbetul 

Commento seel vo play? (:

Majlis.

Salam,

Since yesterday, our family meme dok bole duduk diye *kelantanese accent tak jadi*.

And I guess it isn't too late for me to wish a Happy Aidiladha to all Muslims, may Allah cherish your coming years with His Love and Blessings (:

Today mom dengan berjaya dan alhamdulillah-nye, berjaya mengendalikan Majlis Khatam al-Quran for my sister, Adrina. She said that this was something she wanted to do since, err. dah lama lah dia plan :) lol. So, syukur hari ni terlaksana juga. hew hew. Bak kata Mummy,

" Dulu, ibu takde nye dapat macam ni. So, Alhamdulillah lah dapat buat for your sister" 

Today's majlis involved lots and lotsa foooooddd :) 

mom and her friends, our neighbors pun.

Yeah, it's like everybody loves Raymond. except,...there's no Raymond. #tahell?

No, actually semalam lagi lah memenatkan. I was on a "masak, kemas, then masak lagi, kemas lagi" basis. Couldn't complain I guess, balik rumah pung sekali sekala meh (: And, yeah I know I'm supposed to be posting that macaroon recipe-which I will, not just yet-that some people have requested. Therefore, I apologize. There were some "technical" problems. 

Le new style le me wear, currently. Don't ask by who, I created it. Aku main lilit, pusing-pusing dan pin sendiri. 

and, VOALAH!

let me know what you think? 

*tweeting is much more efficient than wall-ing me, thanks muachs!

Finally :D

Salam :) 

First and foremost,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIVERSARY

to my dearest raisin! 

   I know we haven't been in contact, like, thoroughly due to both of our busy schedules and truthfully,

I feel sad about it :( tapi biasalah, nak SPM lagi hardcore maa, awak tu kena jaga diri elok" nak exam ni, never think that at this point, nothing is worth doing. Everything is, really. Although it might sound corny and all that I'm wishing you like this, I still hope that you do remember me at times ( lol ) and it puts me at ease knowing that someone else is there with you dekat oh Semesta SBT tuu. hew hew.

   So happy 17th dear Raz Iskandar Hakim, I hope even with your temporary 'occupation', you still would have the time to sit back and enjoy your special day :) All the best with your exam, or trials. I miss ya, hope to see you soon! 

:)

So, some might wonder where I've been hibernating for this past almost-a-month, and..some might not even care. but whatever. Heck yeah, I've been busy. Today was our second last paper, Microeconomics. 

God Only knows the relief! 

Yet again, there are still stressing matters that well, when I think about it freaks me out. This applies to from before our Final Exam week began until now -because;

1) I had my Final Project to complete.

   During this 3-week period, I think I almost went bald. yes, botak! banyak betul dugaan U__U

The task was to make an animation- hand drawn! phew, if I were DaVinci that would be lemon squeezy. However, I live in my sad sad world, reality. #sigh

So this was my very,very first animation video and as you can clearly witness, tak matang kan? 

I mean in terms of editing and shots lah whatnot. How was I to know we were to be tasked to do something that involves taking 300 shots of our own drawings? kalau tsha tahu, ada lah rasa nak bawak stand kann. sigh again.

Alhamdulillah, although I wasn't granted any awards that night or dapat title Best Animation, I was nominated for the 6 best drawings. hee :) That paid off,  I guess since this project took me 2 frickin and arsh-biting days to complete. bajet tak? hik hik *nada gedik*

2) I had my Architectural Drafting papers to redo.

Redo means to re-do the assignment, yg mana my papers were (almost all) B+, officially sad. #sobs

And I guess it was our luck that my group punya lecturer returned our assignments last minute, and there were TWELVE papers in all. Two Fridays in a row I didn't sleep sebab nak siapkan kerja and on the third friday I could only manage 3hours. plus I had this:

Extra assignments, kena buat free-hand. I tak pakai ruler yeuw, ni pung main hantam saja la. Lecturer cakap, just "copy". hmmm, :) scale tarak, apa tarak. belasah jela. Aku ikut sejibik-sejibik kertas brief tu. hew hew.

And to top it all off, tomorrow I have to submit all my assignments in one giant A2 portfolio. and we're binding it this afternoon -__-  which means, malam ni maybe tak tidur lagi sebab nak kena decorate the portfolio pulak. #sigh

Next week, Environmental Studies- LAST PAPER 

After that, ciou cincau :) 

Pray for our success too, please? InsyaAllah.

up next: Macaroon recipe and possibly a tutorial! 

Mum,

It is her birthday today, and so I texted this to her first thing :) nak call karang mcm nak makan penampaq pulak call orang malam" buta -__- so, I made effort so that she'd read it first thing in the morning before she logs into facebook (which I've already posted on her wall as well hehe, mind you).

Please excuse my non-Shakespeare-ness because I am only able to write simple corny poems which sincerely, comes from my heart :)

Salam,

Dear mother.

It's your birthday and I just want to say,

That it is through my everyday until today

I pray so that He hears what you wish for

When you blow those candles away,

That He forgives you for the mistakes you've once made.

That He cherishes His love for you & all 

That surrounds you through your decades,

That the doors of Jannah are always wide open

For you to enter as you may,

That every word you say

Provides guidance when I'm lead astray,

That your wajhah gives me inner peace

When I lose my way,

And that your voice summons harmony when

My skies are grey.

Just hold on dear mum,

For the trials will help you gain strength and on that Day,

You would have come to know that you had

The power;

The power to fight through concrete barriers all day.

To withstand our wrongs and silliness,

To endure the pain of any I've caused you to feel.

Happy anniversary dearest mum;

An endlessly working superhuman,

A hero,

A cure to the sick,

A model to most entitled son or daughter,

A beating heart to anyone else whom celebrates and embraces

along with appreciation of the love and care they've been sprayed with since,

The happiness to the sad,

The companion to the lonely,

The lover to the loved.

With love,

your daughter.

Know when she says no.

Salam :)

Harlo, this entry is for the guys out there with those cheesy pick-up lines (because my friend just recently was haunted by a guy who's friggin into her and he tells the whole world about it). eh, no. Cross that, this is for the guys out there with the wrong moves. 

Moves That Aren't Like Jagger

1. When you like her, you straight away make a move and because your moves are so not like Jagger, you will fail, so to receive the absolute "depressing & sad" response.
2. When you like her, you tell the gooddamn world so (refer above), this only adds to the virtual distance between you and her and getting together. kesian.
3. When you like her, you act all 'cool' and 'macho' in front of her,
4. Yet behind some girls' backs you talk crap and disses her/them like crazayy.
5. When you like her, you talk about every single awwwsum thing about you to impress her and she ain't even carin. lol.
6. When you like her, you like someone else too.
7. You like her, but your ego is bigger than your bootay =,=
8. When you like her, you like all her facebook photos by giving "interesting" comments i.e. 

# u so kiut lah!

#heyyy prettay, wanna get jiggy wit meh?

#aww, u went to Giant and tak ajak I? mewajuwk lawhh :(

maigad.

These are only the few things I notice, there are more. just bear in mind yah? ;)

animation, whaat?

salam :)

Berkurun sudah daku meninggalkan kau, and there are several reasons to that. However, I find that it isn't necessary to say how so. So, without further adue let us move on <-- what the crap. 

   I am currently working on my final project for this semester which cuts 40 marks from my entire "portfolio" nanti which furthermore is hand-in required in order for me to bust myself into the design group. Please oh please, God help me out :S 

   I see no future for me IF (may it be true not *Shakespeare tone) I had been put into the non-design group as I would kill the ducks and cats here at 12th college if I must considering the fact that I would have to face new courses accounting Principles of Accounting, Laws and yedda yedda. Therefore, pleasee dear oh darling readers of mine. Thy prayers shall be of big assistance and gratitude :) end of Shakespeare tone. smiley face. 

My storyboard got a good review so far, from tutor "Razman-husband-of-actress-Nadiyatul"

I know, how cool is that? the actress part lah =="

okay, tang ni bukan cheq lukis.

 signature: Azhari Mohd Fuzi 

haha, I capub u. sorray!